Help I Am So Confused!

Help I Am So Confused!

Joshua just gained admission into a new Christian school  as a boarder.  Unknown  to his parents, though a teenager,  he had been battling with immorality and smoking. It all started two y e a r s   b a c k ,  w h e n   F r a n k ,  h i s   c o u s i n ,  i n t r o d u c e d   h i m   t o pornography.   “How  do  I   feed  this   addiction in   this   new environment? How  do I hide this side of me, and live out a normal Christian life?” Joshua wondered

Shortly after settling  in the new school, Joshua became  friends with a group of “decent” boys – Ben, Kodjo,  Festus, and Nii. These were brilliant  students and good singers who had started a gospel band in the school.

At  break time on this fateful day, Festus beckoned to his friends, including Joshua, to meet under the trees by the new block. They knew  it  would  be  another short music rehearsal   but  to  their surprise, Festus pulled out a mobile phone, which he had sneaked to  school.  “What’s  that?”  Kodjo   asked. “My  phone,”  replied Festus. “Why?  It is not allowed, you know it’s against the school rules. Anyway,  what music clip are you  watching?” Nii   asked while grabbing the phone. “Festus,  you  watch pornography in school?” Nii  sighed. “I’ve tried to keep this from everyone, but I am tired. It’s been very challenging for me these past two years. I’ve been struggling with pornography, masturbation, and serious lust.” Festus confessed. “One  side of me loves God  but the other side is seriously struggling because of this secret life that I seem to like.”  “Hmmn! It will  shock you to know that this has been my problem too,”  Nii  confessed. Surprisingly, Ben and Joshua also opened up on their personal struggle with lust and pornography.

Festus was surprised to know that all his friends, except Kodjo, had similar personal hidden struggles.

Joshua asked blatantly for  help.  “Kodjo!  Please, what  is your secret, I am so confused and ashamed of this dark side of me. Tell us your secret.” Just then, the bell rang. “Guys, let’s meet here right after siesta. Bring  your guitars along. Read Psalms 119:11 and Philippians 4:8 before coming. We’ll talk.” Kodjo hugged them as they returned to their classrooms.

Right  after siesta, they met as promised. Kodjo  asked Joshua to read the Bible passages.  He  read Psalm 119:11 – “Your word I have hidden in my heart, That I might not sin against You!,” and Philippians 4:8  “Finally,  brethren,  whatever things are  true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of  good report,  if  there is any  virtue and  if  there is anything praiseworthy–meditate on these things.”

Kodjo  then recounted how he had been delivered  from a similar predicament  years back through counselling and intercession by his uncle, the school chaplain. He declared that the only way out was to receive the Lord  Jesus Christ as their personal Saviour. He admonished them with Galatians 5:14-21 – “…Now the works of the esh are evident, which are: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, idolatry, …those who practice such things will  not  inherit  the kingdom  of  God,”  and exhorted them with Galatians 5:22-23 – But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self- control” and Matthew 16:26a – For what prot is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul?”

Kodjo led them through the sinner’s prayer as they strummed away the ever-popular hymn “What a friend we have in Jesus” on their guitars.

Do  you see yourself in any of  these  boys? Are  you addicted  to pornography, sex, drugs, cyber fraud, wild  parties  and alcohol? Your  parents  or  guardians  may  not have any  idea about your struggles, but Jesus Christ does and wants to set you free. Why curtail your bright destiny and greatness by allowing these vices destroy you and nally send you to hell? You may have tried in the past to be free from these vices but only Jesus Christ can save you as the Apostle Paul said, “Nor is there salvation in any other, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved” (Acts 4:12). Will  you allow Jesus Christ come into your heart to change it? If your answer is yes, please, pray this prayer now:

“Lord Jesus, I confess you are the Saviour of the world. I repent of my sins and ask that you forgive me. I invite you into my heart to be my personal Lord  and Saviour. I make a commitment to love and serve you all the days of my life. Amen.”

If you prayed this prayer, you are born again. To grow, be a part of a Christian fellowship or church in your school. During  holidays, join a thriving youth group in a Bible-believing church. You will have to change your friends who inuence you negatively, burn the pornographic  materials, and delete unwanted contacts  and sites from your phone or computer now.

All scriptures, unless otherwise stated, are taken from the

New King James Version (NKJV) of the Holy Bible

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